It seems like a lifetime since i left my friends in JJ and enter into national services . For the past 2 years my life had been so intricately link with national services . It would not even be wrong to say that SAF had became my life . When i was first enlisted into national service in Tekong , i told myself regardless what happened in SAF , i must not change my own personality . I like the way i was 2 years ago . In retrospect , it seems foolish to think that one could remain unchanged diverse world of the army . Indeed i saw many people of differing upbringing , personality and attitude to life . They brought in new perceptions and ways of thinking into my life . Slowly but surely i was changing in my own way. I began to see things in a different light . The world was no longer just black and white to me . It was coloured in a whole gamut of colours . My past sterotypes and common beliefs was shattered easily by waves of new ideas . I was shown a new way of life i could endeavour . But ultimately i decide which way i should walk . i could still remain the way i was before . I still like the way i was 2 years ago . Carefree and untamed , i felt free in the past . But it was not true freedom . It was freedom without knowing . i was just avoiding all the problems . i was just escaping . So should i give up what i was before and embrace a new , pragmatic me ? Does confirmity means happiness for me ? Can i just follow the steps of other for the rest of my life ? will i be happy if i give up what is intrinsic me ? HAHA it seems that no matter which way i choose , there are still lots of question yet to be answer . So for now , i would still continue to walk down this path and keep on learning .
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