the last countdown

It is perhaps with a tint of sadness that i wrote this post.... this is the day that i had been waiting for or at least preparing for . My last day as a 20 years old little boy ( not that i will change in a werewolf or a man the next day .) But it is my own countdown. A countdown that belong to me alone ( like duh ) . For many , they are already deep in slp , for some other maybe they are enjoying their life for some they could be facing their greatest challenge in life , but for me i will take the next 30 min peacefully and thinking about what i have done for the last 21 years . Clearly i done a lot of stupid things ( even more than most ppl even know :) ) , i also done a lot of things that i am proud of ( though my frds also said i am proud of the wrong things ) . But to me the most impt part of my life are from meeting different ppl and things in life , these are experiences that enrich my life and knowledge that mould and change my perspective and crafting the febrin that i am today . So i thank you all for being a part of my life and letting me be a part of urs . those memories that u gave me will always leave a mark on me .... ( hope not a scar though )
Here is a little story abt my name febrin ... AS u all may had heard be4 , my parents wanted to give a special and unique english name to me so that my name can be remembered easily . They went great length and came with many names but all sounds too common and too unlike "me" ( i have no idea what is "me' ) ... then there was this relative from msia who came to see me , upon seeing the fern leaf ( milk brand ) , she came out with a this idea of fill up to the brim of the milk powder with the fern leaf milk powder ..... so how it became Febrin ( fern brim ) ( pardon me for the incomplete story i was like so young .... ) But when i was in primary sch , i always thought i will change it when i hit 21 , this name is so weird and i hated westerners ( i was all hail communism then hahaha ) . SO i refused to use the name . It was till a malay teacher who cannot pronounce my chao jing chanced upon "febrin" , be4 it became super popular . Suddenly i came from the periphery of the class to the main topic of the class ... ppl goes like ( hey u know that guy is called febrin , i think he is french ( it is still primary sch ) ) At first i hated it when ppl called me Febrin but time passes , when Febrin may nt be a perfect name , but it allowed me to know some realli nice ppl and definitely a gd conversation starter ( hi i am febrin , u can call me feb fer fur furry farby febee hahaha ) . Then i discovered that febrin is nt realli that bad , whats the point of a name anyway . so as long as everyone could be rem me then i am happy :)
So I cannot promise that i will not change , neither can i say this febrin is the best that i can be .... BUT i promised that Febrin will always be Febrin , i hope that the 80 year old Febrin can say that i have lived one hack of a life :)