More than words

When i was very young , i always thought i will have a very nice and fancy 21 birthday . dreaming that it will be a grand affair ppl will come from all walks of life just to wish me a happy birthday ... when i gt to sec , i started to be a loner , believing that the world is in a jealous conspiracy to destroy me ( yes i even have a secret plan to hide myself in easter island...) so grand birthday party is off my mind . IN army i thought man shld follow the way of a man . and according to my gd frd "shane" that equals to getting drunk . A man can only be considered as a man if he get drunk ( sound dumb but it actually make sense to me then .... ) , thru that i came up with "the way of the man" path (E.G. of a rule is like a man only eat when he must . Needless to say , after like a week of spartan life , i gave up ( obviously food is of paramount over anything like manhood ) so today ( exactly 2 day from my last post or the last 30 min of my first day of 21 ) , i wan to say of what realli happened on my 21st
It was nthing fancy ( sorry to say that i did not arrive on a pumpkin carriage , ) , in fact much of my bd was spend with a very small grp of ppl ,a simple lunch and a small gathering with my ex classmate . But that is something abt this ordinary setting that make it special ... the feeling that to know that ppl come specially for me and that the day belongs to me is perhaps only comprehensible to the birthday boy alone . OF course , the day is imperfect as there were some of my ex classmate who cannot make it . To say the truth , i was somewhat disappointed . i dun need fancy gifts or fantastic birthday wishes ,is a simple dinner too much to ask for ?
However i find myself asking " Havent i done the same thing be4 ? in my whole life , havent i wanted to wish someone happy birthday but failed to do so ? Given a choice ,everyone wants to do the right thing , but sometime what i think ought to be done is different from others ? And i know for certain they truly wish all the best for me ... that i believed should be enough and is happy for it .

Btw i wan to thx some ppl from ard
First daryl and jason for planning the dinner
all those who came on my birthday , esp wan yee who despite being the only gal ( for like 3 consecutive gathering ) i thx u all
oh ya candice thx for ur muffin ( although most likely u will never see the blog entry .....)
For all those who wishes me happy birthday, from my heart i thx u ....
For all those who wishes me well from the heart, i like u
For all those who gave me presents , I LOVE U HAHAHAHA