Rabbit and Turtle

Katana is probably one of the most sharp object in the world. The secret behind this dangerous weapon lies in the usage of two different type of metal- high carbon steel and low carbon steel. High carbon steel is generally sharper and stronger, however it tends to be brittle and may break in combat, on the other hand, low carbon steel is generally more durable, but weaker. Thus it can be said that a right combination between this two metal would give rise to a strong, yet durable blade. However, since i was young, I had been wondering whats the point of being durable if it is not sharp enough? whats the point of trying when you cant win? why cant u just use high-carbon metal and be the strongest for however short duration possible? Indeed, I lived through my life trying to be a blade tt cut through everything. For isnt it wonderful, to know that you can always be the best and have no worries. Indeed for example how i study, is definitely one of the least efficient methods and probably damage myself more than what i actually learn, however the only benefit was tt it is definitely throughout and able to generate good result so far... I dun really care abt what happened to me, so as long i get gd grades. TT was my motivation for a while. I remember i always tell myself, I must always be ready for the one final showdown tt i will get in my life and train myself accordingly. There will never be a second chance in life.

However what changes my mind was ironically my most hated and feared module ever, visual anthropology.... I cannot begin to say how fearsome this adversary... for the first time in my life, i feel like i really dont know anything abt the module despite attending the lessons and doing some of the readings... I just cant get it. Fear triumph in my body. Everything seems so abstract and far away from me... I thought I might really give up and turn in something lousy, but somehow i dun think i know enough to even churned out something lousy. It was then I came across the concept of "simmer". To appreciate good music, and good food, one cannot just gobbled them up. One have to slowly appreciate all the various taste and sound, to understand the fullness and the totality of the whole event. One must let the experience "simmer".

it is the same as life, unlike what i perceived in the past, where all the past events just accumulate into a gigantic clash that awaits sometime in the future. I must learn to simmer, and to let the events flow. Do not rush into things and try to accomplish everything, and simply forget about everything else... Even in chaos, given enough time, you can perhaps find something deeper and more meaningful. You could make sense in chaos. However, if I never step into chaos in the first place, I would perhaps nvr understand the hidden logic behind it. Time is perhaps the most wonderous medicine in life.